Sinfur is my subject this time. I'm having a hard time right now with my anxiety. After an incident with my friend (which I believe I've mentioned before), I have had little trust in male figures. While I'm not phobic, I find myself having more panic attacks than before. Just the other day, I had a young man, just slightly older than me, flirt with me and my friend at work, calling me a "rare woman" and saying "I have his attention". He found out when I work, and said he would see me then. Yes, perhaps it's harmless, and he's just coming during a public hour to talk to me, but I feel unsafe. I told one of my managers, and her response was to ignore it; it's "no big deal". And now parents, especially my dad, hate that I blame my fear of this on the fact that my friend was raped. True, it didn't happen to me, and yes, it was a year ago, but I haven't healed yet, and no one is taking my worries seriously. I'm terrified, and no one seems to be on my side. Lately I've been listening to the song "Even If" my MercyMe, one of the lines being "This hurt can go away if you just say the word, but even if you don't, it is well with my soul." I'm trying to be relaxed, and I want to believe that all is well with my soul, but getting the advice to wait until something happens makes my soul uneasy. I don't want to wait to be stalked, harassed, or even raped because no one is listening.

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